CROSSDRESSER MASK

I got to thinking about the many crossdressers that never go in public for fear of being recognized. Then I thought about how many times I have walked past someone that either knows Duke or Micki. It’s one or the other with very few exceptions because they know either Micki or Duke. Only a hand full of very trusted people have seen both Duke and Micki. The makeup I am wearing while dressed serves as a crossdresser mask hiding my true identity.

Two instances of the crossdresser mask I experienced where people knew me as Micki were the bar manager at the Marriott hotel in Long Beach where I have stayed many times. We had many late night conversations during slow periods about everything under the sun. I typically sat in the outside patio area and she came out when she saw me there. One Saturday night she came out to tell me she was leaving for another job she actually asked if she could hug me. She told me that she will miss our conversations.

The next day Sunday I played golf as Duke and came back to the hotel for dinner. I was sitting at the lobby bar when she walked past me. I watched her walk by as she like most women avoided eye contact after hugging less than 24 hours prior. I know she saw me when across the bar she spoke with one of her employees because she looked right at me. I did not look anything like Micki so she walked on past me.

The other instance of the crossdresser mask I experienced was again with someone who knew me as Micki and this one is a male. Micki has known him for well over 20 years and consider him a friend but he has never met Duke. On one occasion while I was having lunch at the bar of an Irish Pub he walked in with some friends. They sat on the 3 stools at the end of the bar a mere 6 feet from me and proceeded to have a good time drinking beer. Because I did not know the two companions I said nothing to my friend. I did not know if it would embarrass him because he owns a restaurant in town. Probably not but I don’t take chances like that. I told him about seeing him and he was pissed I did not come over and say hi. I guess Duke owes him a drink next time I am down there.

It is important to note that I did not speak to either of the people above as Duke but am confident they would not associate the voice with Micki. It may sound familiar but they would never know where to place it because they don’t see me that often. My crossdresser mask serves its purpose by not giving people a recognizable face to put with the voice.

I have had some other encounters with hotel staff where I spoke to them both with my crossdresser mask and without. I don’t change my voice when dressed so its out there for them should they be curious. In these instances I am always curious how they will react when they hear my voice. I am hyper aware of their reactions and always make eye contact while observing theirs. In 100% of the instances the reaction is courteous and professional with no hint of discovery.

There was only one incident where someone heard my voice and connected Duke and Micki and there were special circumstances. It was at The Southern Comfort Conference back in the late 1990’s and I was seated at the bar with my wife in a business suit. Someone I knew from previous events heard me speak to the bartender and put it together. Although she had never seen me as DUKE she knew Micki was going to be at the conference so it was a bit easier to figure out.

I believe my crossdresser mask / makeup is doing its job as long as I keep my mouth shut around people I know. Maybe those who still have not gone out yet will see the crossdresser mask as a boost to their courage helping them get out.