CROSSDRESSER SERENITY

Crossdresser serenity sounds great if you can actually achieve it but life does not work that way. Once you have it life throws things at you that threaten it. To keep it going you need to acquire a particular mindset that will allow you course correct when one of life’s waves throws you off.

Years ago before I had even gone out fully dressed in public I noticed some words painted on a store front while sitting at a traffic signal. The light changed before I could fully read the words but what I did read grabbed me. I actually went around the block so I could write them down. It was really just one long sentence but the more I thought about the words the greater their impact on me. I did not know why they were written on the store window because the business did not have a sign. The window was painted brown so you could not see in. There was no author at the bottom of the sentence so nobody was getting any credit for the wisdom.

From that day on I adapted my thinking to incorporate those words and they have served me well. It taught me that life is going to give me things that I can’t fix or eliminate. I need to realize that and accept them and move on. I also need to have the strength to change the ones that I can but most importantly know the difference. Like Dirty Harry once said “ A man has to know his limitations.”

So when it comes to my crossdressing I have accepted that I am one and its not going away EVER! I can’t change it anymore than a leopard can shed its spots. I can however change the way I think about it and the guilt that came with it which took a little time. In the end when I thought about who was hurt by my dressing I realized it was only me and it was self inflicted. It does not take money out of anyone’s wallet, food out of their mouth, roof over their head etc. It’s not contagious so know one will catch it from me. Most of all I am not trying to fool or deceive anyone in any way. Yes I am dressed like a woman as elegant as possible but with the first word out of my mouth everyone in the vicinity knows the story. I get that out of the way first off so I can have a conversation honestly with people, or not! It’s their call once they know what going on and also their loss if they walk away.

I know I cannot make them accept what I am doing and don’t try so there is no disappointment on my end. I would not try to wrestle a buffalo either knowing my odds of success beforehand. Them moving away from me opens an opportunity for a conversation with someone not so closed minded. I have had many fun conversations with people detailed in many of my posts one of which was my February adventure.

If this mindset works for you its like taking a shower after being caught in a dust storm. You come out fresh and clean leaving the dust in the drain ready to move on.

About a decade later while supporting a friend I discovered where the words I wrote down came from and why the store had no name on it. The words are from the Alcoholics Prayer and the storefront must have been a meeting place. The lack of signage I attribute to concern over the privacy of people attending meetings.

Here are the words as I wrote them down. If you are not the praying type just drop off the first word it will work just the same.

God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can, and
Wisdom to know the difference.

When something works it makes sense to use it even if you have to tweak the wording a bit. Even if you never leave the basement of your house if a new mindset helps you feel better about your crossdressing do it.

You don’t need to be an alcoholic or have an addiction to benefit from a positive mindset. Changing your thinking will have many benefits and remember that if you think you can you might. If you think you can’t YOU WON”T!